Starting over can be messy. That’s exactly how I would describe my 2015 so far – messy. Already this year has held a massive amount of heartbreak and change for me. As I look back on all that’s passed, that’s really the first thing to come to mind. How messy. I have really made a mess of things. Life doesn’t really seem to care how much I may have going in my life at once (and I will tell you right now, that I always have a lot going on – probably at least 1.5-2 times as much as is healthy for a normal person). Life doesn’t care – in fact it seems to enjoy constantly throwing more and more things at me. Very often those things come completely out of the blue. Because being prepared for something would be cheating. As life threw new things at me, decisions needed to be made. And as more and more things were thrown, my decision making ability decreased. Rapidly. Until it seemed that nearly every decision I made was the wrong one. I was sinking deeper and deeper int